I am who i am and i have no problem with that.

So I sit here and think for like ever on what to write to the point where my head starts hurting. I mean so what, who cares about a stupid blog why would I want to waste so much time on this? I have no clue. Im very different than the average teenager. I don't like going to huge high school parties, don't like dances, and shopping isn't my favorite thing in the world to do. I have eye problems, very clumsy, and just a weirdo. But guess what?! I don't care. I don't care what other people think about me. I don't care if they think I'm wierd that I don't like going to parties and stuff. I have two toes stuck together, I was born with it. I have the choice of getting them separated, but I think that it's good to have something unique about myself that no one else has. There is always a demand in the *girl* teenager world on who has the cutest shoes, cutest outfit, cutest purse, cutest hair. I could go on forever. We always judge each other on how we look and I think that is absolutley rediculous. You know why? Because the only reason why people judge people is because they are not happy with themselves. They are jealous of that person that they are judging because they wish they looked as pretty or as cute as her. But you know what, I don't care if someone thinks i'm ugly, or if they think i'm not cool, because guess what??

I LOVE EXACTLY THE WAY I AM!

Thinking about him.

Everyone experiences a time in their life when you feel that you might be in love with someone. You can't sleep at night, you can't stop thinking about him, you just can't function right. What happens when he lives 200 miles away? You are stuck with deciding whether or you are happy or not. You are thinking that it would be best to break up with him but then you realize how much you like him and you can't live with out him. You can't go a day without talking to him. If you do, you are worried that something happened to him. You don't know what to do but just sit and wait for a phone call. So you stay up all night long waiting for that phone call and you never get one. Now what? Exactly. You don't know. You think you love this person but what if he lies to you? What if he tells you things that he's in but he's not really? Do you still love him? You don't know. But you are still stuck with the same problem...you just can't stop thinking about him. So does that mean you love him?

<3, Kels