War of My Life

By John Mayer

Come out Angels
Come out Ghosts
Come out Darkness
Bring everyone you know

I'm not running
I'm not scared
I am waiting and well prepared

I'm in the war of my life
At the door of my life
Out of Time and there's no where to run away

I've got a hammer
And a heart of glass
I got to know right now
Which walls to smash

I got a pocket
Got no pill
If fear hasn't killed me yet
Than nothing will

All the suffering
And all the pain
Never liked to label

I'm in the war of my life
At the door of my life
Out of time and there's nowhere to run

I'm in the war of my life
At the core of my life
I've got no choice but to fight 'til it's done

No more suffering
No more pain
Never again

I'm in the war of my life
At the door of my life
Out of time and there's no where to run

I'm in the war of my life
I'm at the core of my life
Got no choice but to fight 'til it's done
So Fight on, fight on everyone, so fight on
Got no choice but to fight 'til it's done

I'm in the war of my life
I'm at the core of my life
I've got no choice but to fight 'til it's done

(this song pretty much explains my life)

<3 kels

finding myself again

I am determined.

I am determined to find who I am really am on the inside again. I will rise and be the person God brought me on this Earth to be. I will make my father proud. I will make the lord proud of me. I have realized something that I should have realized a long time ago. I lost who I am deep inside. I decided that I wanted to become this person that I knew wasn't me, but Im not letting that happen any longer. I love dance. I love swimming. I love writing. I love my life and everyone in it. I am determined to change.

Love always,

Kels

P.S. I love you dad and I want to continue sharing amazing memories like the ones in this picture above. I will always be your little boo boo bear no matter what! <3

Beyond Normal

What is Normality?

I lie in bed as the darkness embellishes and feeds at my soul, as society surrounds me with this conception of "normality". We are forced to spit out a dictionary definition for everything. Some things are so fragile, they just can't be textbook defined. Society relies on these resources and their minds are tricked. We are given this concrete sense of normality, but really there is no concrete example. No one is normal, no one is the same, everyone is different. But we are left with this unanswered definition that we think was answered, but it wasnt. No matter how much you "google" it, no matter how long you think about it, there is no such thing as someone being normal or not. Our mind makes us think that there is something normal out there because we always base things off of something more simple. But really we are all complicated and all have things going on with their lives. Even though it may not be the same things, doesn't mean that someone is more normal or less normal than someone else.

And still, the definition of normality is unanswered