Significance??

Is our human life just a dream, from which we never wake, as some scientists claim? Are we blockaded by our feelings, by our loves and hates, by are ideas of good, bad, beautiful, awful? Are we incapable of knowing beyond those ideas and feelings?

"We are such stuff
As dreams are made on, and our little life
is rounded with sleep.."
-William Shakespeare

Is this reality that our human mind created falsely imposed by our naturistic minds? Is our whole meaning of life, creation of men, such as music, love, or colors (science tells us that there isn't such things as music, harmony, or colors in the physic world. Just traveling molecules: There is not external to us, hot or cold, but only different velocities of molecules; there aren't sounds, callings, harmonies, but just variations in the pressure of the air; there aren't colors, or light, just electro-magnetic waves, said H. Von Foerster.)

Are we incapable of knowing beyond the frames imposed to us by nature??

Listen to the words of Pascal, in the seventeenth century:

«When I consider the short duration of my life, swallowed up in the eternity that lies before and after it, when I consider the little space I fill and I see, engulfed in the infinite immensity of spaces of which I am ignorant, and which know me not, I rest frightened, and astonished, for there is no reason why I should be here rather than there. Why now rather than then? Who has put me here? By whose order and direction have this place and time have been ascribed to me?»

Love,
Kels

Human

being human, it's a state of mind. but what is it really? there are so many questions in this world that are never answered, so many realities that havn't been discovered, so many lives that have been lost because of everyone being human. we live our lives like we have more than one life. we make immature choices and mistakes. we don't realize that we are nearly almost to the end until...we are. that is when we decide to take life as a fragile being, when we finally realize what we where put on this earth to do. and that is to change peoples lives and help people that are young and innocent to make better choices and to save them from going through the same realization as we did. i am taking the next step into realizing what i have skipped in my journey and changing to accomplish something great.

love always,
kels

War of My Life

By John Mayer

Come out Angels
Come out Ghosts
Come out Darkness
Bring everyone you know

I'm not running
I'm not scared
I am waiting and well prepared

I'm in the war of my life
At the door of my life
Out of Time and there's no where to run away

I've got a hammer
And a heart of glass
I got to know right now
Which walls to smash

I got a pocket
Got no pill
If fear hasn't killed me yet
Than nothing will

All the suffering
And all the pain
Never liked to label

I'm in the war of my life
At the door of my life
Out of time and there's nowhere to run

I'm in the war of my life
At the core of my life
I've got no choice but to fight 'til it's done

No more suffering
No more pain
Never again

I'm in the war of my life
At the door of my life
Out of time and there's no where to run

I'm in the war of my life
I'm at the core of my life
Got no choice but to fight 'til it's done
So Fight on, fight on everyone, so fight on
Got no choice but to fight 'til it's done

I'm in the war of my life
I'm at the core of my life
I've got no choice but to fight 'til it's done

(this song pretty much explains my life)

<3 kels

finding myself again

I am determined.

I am determined to find who I am really am on the inside again. I will rise and be the person God brought me on this Earth to be. I will make my father proud. I will make the lord proud of me. I have realized something that I should have realized a long time ago. I lost who I am deep inside. I decided that I wanted to become this person that I knew wasn't me, but Im not letting that happen any longer. I love dance. I love swimming. I love writing. I love my life and everyone in it. I am determined to change.

Love always,

Kels

P.S. I love you dad and I want to continue sharing amazing memories like the ones in this picture above. I will always be your little boo boo bear no matter what! <3

Beyond Normal

What is Normality?

I lie in bed as the darkness embellishes and feeds at my soul, as society surrounds me with this conception of "normality". We are forced to spit out a dictionary definition for everything. Some things are so fragile, they just can't be textbook defined. Society relies on these resources and their minds are tricked. We are given this concrete sense of normality, but really there is no concrete example. No one is normal, no one is the same, everyone is different. But we are left with this unanswered definition that we think was answered, but it wasnt. No matter how much you "google" it, no matter how long you think about it, there is no such thing as someone being normal or not. Our mind makes us think that there is something normal out there because we always base things off of something more simple. But really we are all complicated and all have things going on with their lives. Even though it may not be the same things, doesn't mean that someone is more normal or less normal than someone else.

And still, the definition of normality is unanswered

Lost and Insecure

"I never knew that everything was falling, that everyone i knew was waiting on a que to turn and run when all i need was the truth..."(Over my Head by The Fray)

Happiness is the thing everyone struggles most for in life. It causes people greed, selfishness, uncaring towards others, oblivious, and most of all tobecome a liar. Why can't everyone just tell the truth ALL the time? What good does it do to lie? Nothing, it does nothing but hurt the others around you. How in the world can someone gain happiness from such depressing choices..??

Its....IMPOSSIBLE.

Telling the truth is always the path to happiness, it makes you happy and the other person somewhat happy that you told the truth even though it may not be a happy truth. The truth hurts but I think anyone would rather hear the truth than a bunch of lies anyday. So why can't everyone just do that? why?? Is it really that difficult? I can answer that question. No it isnt. Society needs to stop lying to its world. Its going to tear humanity apart someday, and its going to start today if people don't start changing.

<3 kels

Maybe, its because im crazy

Maybe its because im crazy.... maybe it's because i can't honestly tell you what i want...
Am i no good for you now??
I feel like we are spilling over...that we are falling apart.
I feel like a fiction in your arms.
I feel pain through the bulletproof vest. It seeped through the rough edges of my soul.
My soul overpowers life. It overpowers my actions, the words i speak, love i feel, pain i ache.
There is no peace. Words are mostly noises that goes with voices. words in my memory are like music to me. i pray that something...anything will pick me up off this cold ground.

As i once told someone who I cared and still do care about very much...
"When I look at you, I see forgiveness, I see the truth, I see inspiration, I see a beautiful melody waiting to be heard. You love me for who i am, like the stars hold the moon. Your the one person that I can look at and know that your the one for me. You stand out from the crowd. You shine brighter than anyone else that I know. You appeared just like a dream to me. And thats when i knew that you were the one for me and that I loved you." .... Until you stabbed me in the back...

The truth is that he did appear like a dream to me. Dreams aren't real, they aren't realistic. There fiction. Love isn't real. It's fake. We are fooled. Its a dream that you come up with that is only halfway true.

maybe im crazy...just maybe....or maybe i make some sense. idk.

morally confused...
<3 kels