Saturday, April 17, 2010

Lost and Insecure

"I never knew that everything was falling, that everyone i knew was waiting on a que to turn and run when all i need was the truth..."(Over my Head by The Fray)

Happiness is the thing everyone struggles most for in life. It causes people greed, selfishness, uncaring towards others, oblivious, and most of all tobecome a liar. Why can't everyone just tell the truth ALL the time? What good does it do to lie? Nothing, it does nothing but hurt the others around you. How in the world can someone gain happiness from such depressing choices..??

Its....IMPOSSIBLE.

Telling the truth is always the path to happiness, it makes you happy and the other person somewhat happy that you told the truth even though it may not be a happy truth. The truth hurts but I think anyone would rather hear the truth than a bunch of lies anyday. So why can't everyone just do that? why?? Is it really that difficult? I can answer that question. No it isnt. Society needs to stop lying to its world. Its going to tear humanity apart someday, and its going to start today if people don't start changing.

<3 kels

Friday, April 9, 2010

Maybe, its because im crazy

Maybe its because im crazy.... maybe it's because i can't honestly tell you what i want...
Am i no good for you now??
I feel like we are spilling over...that we are falling apart.
I feel like a fiction in your arms.
I feel pain through the bulletproof vest. It seeped through the rough edges of my soul.
My soul overpowers life. It overpowers my actions, the words i speak, love i feel, pain i ache.
There is no peace. Words are mostly noises that goes with voices. words in my memory are like music to me. i pray that something...anything will pick me up off this cold ground.

As i once told someone who I cared and still do care about very much...
"When I look at you, I see forgiveness, I see the truth, I see inspiration, I see a beautiful melody waiting to be heard. You love me for who i am, like the stars hold the moon. Your the one person that I can look at and know that your the one for me. You stand out from the crowd. You shine brighter than anyone else that I know. You appeared just like a dream to me. And thats when i knew that you were the one for me and that I loved you." .... Until you stabbed me in the back...

The truth is that he did appear like a dream to me. Dreams aren't real, they aren't realistic. There fiction. Love isn't real. It's fake. We are fooled. Its a dream that you come up with that is only halfway true.

maybe im crazy...just maybe....or maybe i make some sense. idk.

morally confused...
<3 kels