Poor self image is like looking at yourself in a carnival mirror where your weaknesses and faults are exaggerated but your strengths and qualities are invisible. Unfortunately, this is how I feel every minute of every single day. But how do I fix it? I am too afraid to take any risks because I am afraid that I am going to fail. But in reality, who cares if I fail. I guess I do. I don't ever feel beautiful even though people tell me I am every single day. I feel like I should be 50 pounds lighter even though I am already on the verge of anorexia. But the problem is, I am beautiful, I am skinny. I am everything that I say I am not. But I am too afraid to actually face new challenges, afraid to face something new. Which ends up resulting in my inability to achieve anything, or grow, or even live. I just wish that I could look in the mirror and say that I am beautiful and for once, just once actually mean it.
It's going to be today. I promise you.
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